There are moments in life where we realize with super duper clarity that we really have no control. Let's face it, we really don't EVER have control. However, our human brains and hearts trick themselves into thinking that if we just try hard enough or beg long enough or talk to the right people, we can somehow exert some semblance of control of the situations in our lives.
I love looking back on the moments that have given me clarity...those sweet horrible moments when I've realized God is really ALL I know for sure. For me, those moments have always lead me to Psalm 63. I have tear stains and hi-liter marks and writing all over the margin of Psalm 63 in my Bible. God is good and I trust him.
Tonight I was talking with some friends about a situation that I so wish I had control over. I wish I could wave a magic wand and get want I want. That's not how it works, though, and if it did work that way, we'd be stuck with the inferior ideas I have rather than the infinitely better oh-so-amazing plans God has in mind.
So, I come back to the clarity...to the truth that God has plans I know nothing of...to the rock-solid belief I have that God is good and He sees His people and He knows us and He chooses to give us good gifts.
Psalm 63
A psalm of David, regarding a time when David was in the wilderness of Judah.
1 O God, you are my God;I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in your sanctuary
and gazed upon your power and glory.
3 Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
how I praise you!
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
5 You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
I will praise you with songs of joy.
6 I lie awake thinking of you,
meditating on you through the night.
7 Because you are my helper,
I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
your strong right hand holds me securely.
9 But those plotting to destroy me will come to ruin.
They will go down into the depths of the earth.
10 They will die by the sword
and become the food of jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God.
All who trust in him will praise him,
while liars will be silenced.
